And I don't know how to fix it or change it, short of a few magical things happening. I really dislike not having control over situations, or when a fix might take months or even a year. Additionally, it really angers me when one thing has a hold on so many others...it can make you feel totally helpless. I have vented to my husband, my friends, now here...I've meditated, prayed, tried to figure out a "plan," even tried not to think about it, but I'm still angry. The issue is bigger than me, so I can't solve it. I can only try to fix my part of it.
I'll write more later, when I actually have TIME to sit and write a real post. Another thing to add to my anger.
(To ease everyone's minds, I'm OK, it's work/economy related.)